My father was an N., I married an alcoholic, then a mild N. with Jealousy and posessiveness, then the worst N. ever. After those 3 marriages, I didn't date for a long time. Dated one very nice guy but it didn't work out. were still friends.

Then recently, an old friend came back on the scene. Yep, you guessed it... an N. He emotionally raped me.

So I'm left wondering much of what you are - how is it that I don't recognize N's before it's too late? Surely, I'm working out some garbage leftover from my father.

I will try to add more here as I can, I find my defensiveness is triggered from your story and I'm now feeling very paranoid. Like he's watching - or like maybe you are him (but I know you are not him).

see what can happen if you don't take control NOW!!?? schiz can be the result and you don't want that added to your BPD.