Today has been a real struggle keeping stable. I realised that not only have I lost my relationship, I have also lost one of the closest friends I have ever had. They want to stay good friends, but how can I trust them.. I can't..
I feel lost without them. Work has kept me occupied today, and has been busy. I keep having to ground myself, as I feel myself starting to get a bit loose on the whole reality thing. This isn't normal.
I had a chat with the crisis team on the phone earlier, who for lack of a better term, just made me feel insignificant and like I was just after attention.
The last thing we want right now is contact with people, so why would we go out looking for the attention!?