With alters out and about... I feel light years away from my T... I ask myself.. "why am I in therapy"... for what do I need this..

for the "hope" of being intergrated... for the "hope" of not feeling the pain caused by the abuse...

for the "hope" of what..

may I ask you..... for the "hope" of what? could any of you give me some insight... for why continue on with therapy.. for why I continue to "hope"... and what it is I "hope" for??

No... I cannot answer my own question,,

at this age... I don't know... for years it was the "hope" of having a normal life... one with a SO.. with family... but is not possible anymore...

my family.. gone.. taken away.. within 2 years...

so what... do I "hope" for now???