(((HUGS E.S.)))
For all of us who are on a road to self discovery...it is not a pleasant jaunt in a pretty meadow, that's for sure..it's more like getting physically sucked into the pgs of The Divine Comedy. but regardless of all the trials and tribulations we encounter...I think people like us would be in much greater agony if we tried to be like those we think maybe we envy..do you know what I'm saying?.. I look at people who are able to go thru life as if they have blinders on. They just keep moving forward accomplishing one thing after another as it presents itself. The same dance day in day out. They never appear to question the nature of their existence, where they fit in the larger picture (or if they do at all?)..and they never seem to grasp themselves as more than face value. I look at people like this and I feel a tinge of jealously..for the possibility of a one minded black and white view...but then I realize that's not who I am..and whatever I am...I'd rather be me, than to never even question or examine what resides inside. Bc I think it would feel empty...and if a person like that were ever to see beyond and come face to face with a mind like yours or mine or anyone else here...I think they would literally die from the shock.. To seek is hard. To know (impossible as far as I can gather)...but to never even look..that sems,so sad to me.
Your path is not an easy one my friend, but it is the path of the courageous..the strong. - Holly