So I called my T this morning and was going to ask her to give me a couple of names of other Ts at their center and somehow we ended up agreeing to give it another shot! She knows about my connection to the Center and my desire to keep my current p-doc and I said something like I really appreciated that she did a few of things that I wanted her to do before I even told her I was terminating. And next thing I knew, we had decided to give it another try...

She agreed to meet with me on Jan 9th and then let me take the rest of Jan off as well as Feb so that I can focus on my work and get off to a good start this year.

I feel really relieved and my T seemed really happy that I was coming back. I know that she really likes me since she said a lot of nice things when I terminated earlier in the week.

I just hope that it all works out! I also wanted to share some of the things that make her a good T so that you all don't think I'm crazy for going back She's very easy to talk to about everything including sex, and she's always 100% focused on me exclusively. She is completely non judgemental, always on time, only canceled once in more than 2 years etc...Lots of really good things!

I just don't like the black slate, but she was more open with her vacation plans than ever before and even admitted that she usually lightens up after a year or so and that she knew that she wasn't as open with me since I had researched her online. Lastly she said she regretted what happened and would do things a little differently in retrospect.

My fingers are crossed!