wow you're smart lol =D

your first post sounded completely healthy and all you needed to do was cry and get over it, it really doesn't seem like there's anything wrong at all with the way you're feeling

what kimmydawn said "you are so understanding of him and his needs. so, saying that, yes i truly believe that you do love him" i also completely agree with, it is quite obvious that you understand love.....

my view on romance is that it is something that can be learned like a skill, alot of people use their skills with the wrong motivation =| There's a big difference between "in love" and "love".

i would be very sad to have romance and no mature love behind it

I was in a similar situation about a year and a half ago, on the male side of it.... but i did not realize I had issues at the time, that relationship fell apart and I got into a new one about 4 months later and this time around I learned there might be something wrong with my head =)

sorry for the pain you're going through :< hope you feel better soon :<