I get this.

Give up on him, but not it's necessary to give up on you. For me, giving up on me is largely b/c there is no one who gets me, I'm all alone. Which is an old feeling from the family of origin.

At the current time, though, I found enough of myself in therapy and I see you and others here on PC who get me sometimes. I've gotten involved in an interest group on Meetup.com where there are some other people In Real Life who kind of get me and vice versa. It's not much. . .but. . .

People need other people. Family life in the last few decades has really f**d that up and therapy, despite its claims, is pretty insufficient to help us "heal" from that.

Not your fault.