I'm alright
I think that i'm just being triggered a lot... Things have been like this for ever so I can't understand why it is so upsetting sometimes.

I mean, I can understand... but... shouldn't I be used to it?
I can't tell if it is getting worse or not... Can't remember how bad it was before, Trying to wake up and pay attention. :/

I think things are just falling apart for me; before we had things in order more so... people that would take care of things... like my brothers... but they are gone now, grown up with their own families and there is no way they can help me the way they did before... so its like starting to click in my head, gears grinding... chaos ensues..

So I guess I'm just being triggered a lot, overwhelmed by so many things and fighting to stay in control :/

Thank you all <3