You know what? When I left him the message yesterday, I did not tell him to call me back. I pretty much just told him a bunch of stuff I wanted him to know. And this is the first time I ever did that and have not been pasted to my cell phone praying that he would call back. At this point, I'm not sure that I even want to talk to him. I am having such a hard time with this and am overwhelmed with thoughts of terminating therapy. I just can't understand what I'm doing wrong to not be able to take away any positive feelings from therapy. And it's not just because of this incident. It has been like this for awhile. The relationship is painful. Maybe I am just not cut out for therapy. As a therapist, I know what I'm doing-- but as a patient, I don't know that I can handle it.