I am feeling so troubled about my relationship with t. I hate being angry with her. But her comment about us not being equals has just stuck in my craw so bad. I even talked to h about it this morning, if you can believe that. I did preface what I said with "I want to talk about what's troubling me, but I don't want to be judged." Because as y'all know he doesn't want me going to therapy anyway, he always says I don't need it anymore. But he let me talk without judging, which was really good. I told him about how she pretty much pressured me to come in January even though I'd said I wanted to take a break and for a very legitimate reason I might add, and about that comment - the "we are not equals because I have this knowledge" and how she has never made me feel like I was less than her ever before that, and that it was hurtful, and he said "Maybe she felt like she had to say that to stay professional." I said how is hurting someone's feelings being professional? I feel like she damaged our quote relationship to the point where it can't be fixed. I'm stewing now and don't even want to go talk to her about it on 1/7. I want to call and cancel. He said "I don't know, Karen. I'm not a shrink. Just take your month off and maybe you won't even want to go back after that." I feel like calling her on Monday and telling her I'm not coming next Saturday. But at the same time, I do still respect the work we have done together and I don't want to let things just end without talking this through, but I don't know what's right anymore. Maybe I should just stop thinking about it and put the anger in a box and wait til next Saturday and talk it out and let the chips fall where they may. I don't know what to do. Part of the problem here I think is that I feel like I owe her somehow because she moved back here. I don't know. The whole thing is just so darned convoluted. She has been such a good t for me, for the past 5+ years, I have grown so much through the work we have done together, I don't really understand what's happening, does anyone have any more insight? I'm sorry I can't seem to let this go. I guess that means I need to talk to her about it. I don't know. Thanks for listening. At least I'm not on an angry rant anymore... lolagrace you haven't weighed in yet on this, that I'm aware of, and I am interested in what your thoughts might be. I appreciate everyone else who has been weighing in as well as this saga has progressed!