I tried to find out where you lived to see what kind of weather u get. Having a job that close to where you live can really add some savings to off set the wage difference. especially where its cold and snows. I think everyone is nervous with new jobs but we tend to have low self esteem and being alone no support. It sounds like they support you. This job happened so fast. I think as time goes on your self esteem will build the longer your there. You also have the lifestyle change of public transit. I think after the first time you find it wasn't that bad unless you are riding the metro in D.C. I think if you have any bills you really don't need you may have to think about that too. I hope you can keep going and get through this.