((((((((((((((ladym)))))))))))))) you sound so wise...

((((((((((((((jacq10))))))))))))) you are much appreciated... i hope your days are brightening... my ears are for you as well... thanks for being here

just taking it moment by moment... still keep slipping back to see her beautiful clear blue eyes, her innocent laughter... the way she was... what can i do? imagining her future life now... will she walk the roads i've been on because of this... will her roads be even darker, more painful?

her choices (not really her choices) are foster care, group home, living with a relative, adoption...

only one in the family qualifies to adopt i think.. my younger 1/2 sis who just had her own baby.. happily married, decent income, home owner, non-drinker/smoker.. but i don't know if she'll volunteer... i am too busy taking care of my alcoholic handicapped mom... God will provide... just the same as for myself, for everyone... i just want it to be easier on her than my imaginations are telling me... only 8... a long time to go before her life is her own and what will it be? i pray she is spared a group home life... that is the worst of all choices as i imagine it... but my fears are running wild... i pray with all i have...