I just looked at the clothes Im wearing and don't remember putting the underwear on and which one to like why am I wearing this one? Memory search....not there. The past is fragmented and a collage of glimpses in the fuzzy distants so much to 5 minutes even just seconds ago.

The past feels disconnected and a blur with memories over riding other memories in a random mix.

Memories stay with the one that experiences them....so when we are very switchy, a single moment memory can be sub-divided into disconnected parts- my personal opinion based on my experience.

2016 seems like just a few months of time passing.

Memories are so garbled....I can't even seem to find a coherent one of mine..since this is our normal, I just come across as absentminded and joked about which makes for a decent disguise. Being that memory recall is almost impossible...I just deal with the present. It gives me headaches trying to pull out a memory, so I don't.

This also screws with our want to. When I want to do something...you know the rest...it's wiped gone.

Like right now....all I see is this iPad in front me without any past or immediate plans for the future even though I don't want to do some of the things that was said we must do. :/

The word is limbo. A constant state of existence: limbo. I termed it chaos before....but it's mostly limbo that best describes our existence.

I wish that there was a goal driven way...but being switchy kills any drive we muster.

These are the hard cold facts. I'm sure you know what I mean, but everyone is different.

C'est la vie.