I agree. Not lazy. Unable to work. Big difference.

I pushed so hard to work that I just made myself sicker and sicker and lacked insight about why I was struggling so much. Working meant everything to me and if I could resume tomorrow I would.

My therapist has told me that he saw me reaching the end of my ability to work for about a year before a number of things happened that made an ending clear and that he was dreading having to tell me that I was not able to do it anymore.