I just realised what I am running from. My own inner hatred. I seethe with hatred. I am looking for someone that I can hate. I'm looking for someone to make me feel good about myself so I do not have to carry the burden of hatred. I can say I hate my past, but that doesn't seem to put the hate where it belongs. I watched a horror movie yesterday where this girl was abused and her fear over time turned into hatred, her darkness/hatred covered the world and bred more hatred. I don't know how to let go my hate. I have no opinions because they are all created by my hate. I don't know if what I am ever saying is true or my hatred discugised. I am poisoned.