Great post. I think the only benefit we have with this, if there really is one, is that we know why. We know why we feel that way and our relationships suffer for that, not that we can really do anything about that. Now we can make things a little better and work on it but our core hurt will always be there and will surface at some point and time. Before I was diagnosed , within the past few years, I was really confused about why I felt that way and why was it so much easier for others to want that loving relationship and find it. Years of questioning that have now been answered and I am thankful for that.
Have a wonderful New Year. Glad to see someone else posting here in the forum.