I'm sorry to hear you're in a bind, but you would be missed. I really enjoy the posts you leave here on PC...& while I know that may not seem like much, it is. I never celebrate my birthday & no one in my family ever exchanges gifts...including for Christmas. While I sometimes feel unfulfilled by NEVER receiving a present (from anyone), I've learned to live with it. That's just the way things are for me. It may sound trite, but acceptance is the key to all our problems. Things may not always seem fair, or right, but we have to trudge on.

Sorry for the dumb advice, as I know this is a double-whammy night for you & I don't want to compare my life/problems to yours. I would miss you if you weren't around these boards. I know this isn't IRL, but please hang on. In a few days perhaps you can look at tonight in the rearview mirror. Take care, & happy birthday.