For most of my life I never knew I had symptoms. My Dad was a Medical Doctor. He never told me that I was mentally ill so I did not know. I blamed myself for my Brother's abuse of me because my Mom told me it was normal. She had me programmed to accept the abuse by the time I was three or four.
I always knew I was not like other people. I just believed it was because I was a weak male/man. I was emotionally and psychologically unstable but I did not know it because no one in my family communicated in a sane way with me.
Later during college and after college, I saw problems with the communication in my relationships. But my lovers/wives did not communicate any better than my Father, Mother, or Brother did so I did not know I was dissociative until 1991 when I was 36.
Even at 36 I had no real memories of the other states. From 1991 until 1999 the dissociation began to increase or at least I began to remember the other states more often.
So I would have to say that amnesia or memory problems is my most common symptom.
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