i didn't truly realize how many i had and still don't think i know them all. it has taken years with some going quiet and old ones still active/growing with new ones emerging as well.

it is a long process and can be so exhausting, confusing, and painful.

i have had to try to be patient in getting information from inside as i don't have a lot of communication where i am actually told things. it comes from things i can sense from the others or things i hear them say which isn't a lot/often. it can cause me to doubt myself too at times. things also seem to change a lot with new pieces i get.