Okay sorry for the dramatic title
But do you guys find that after trauma things have suddenly become more scary when they really havent been before?

Recently the idea of getting naked and getting in a shower and "washing" myself has been really scary. I feel like every time I turn on the shower I just get a horrible sense of dread over me and I get so overwhelmed with this incoming feeling of doom that I just can't get myself to take off my clothes and get underneath the water

Even when I get to the point where I *can* take off my clothes and get into the water, all I ever do is stand there and I dont use soap or touch myself even its just too much work and the thought of it gives me so much anxiety I just cant

I hate the thought of even being naked underneath the water, let alone using soap and touching myself....

People ask me all the time, "are you scared of water, kori?" and I honestly get offended like, "hell no, who is scared of water?! thats ridiculous!" but I think Ive been scared of water for a while now

The thought of showering is too overwhelming and I feel like the water is going to swallow me whole so I just dont shower at all