Nicole,
This must all be very difficult. I wish I could make everything easier for you. I will listen and help as much as possible. You said you were on medication and I can only assume this is not working very well. I do not know a lot about your type but am willing to learn and help if possible. Has it always been this bad or has it gotten worse over time? I do not want to bug you with too many questions but I would like to be able to support you and if I understood better then maybe I could be of more benefit when we chat.

My OCD is mild (very) compared to what you describe. I keep trying to find ways to limit it's effects on my life. I can relate to not wanting to touch anything another person has touched. It is not so much HIV worries as it is just human by-products that freak me out.
I have had anxiety disorder for a long time and do know that much of it can be overcome and even put to my advantage at times. I hope you can hang in there and find ways to get some of the joy back in your life. What types of things do you enjoy? If I can help let me know I will do what I can.

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