I'm in a beautiful hotel paid for with points (so it was free!). It's the same struggle with h. If I can't be happy here, I can't be happy anywhere. Depressed as hell, checking out and going home despondent as usual. Next therapist appointment should be interesting. I just pray for this to end someway somehow. It's like a curse. I am like Princess Diana. Such a seemingly beautiful life, yet so miserable.