This year I have developed a deep attachment to my T that I didn't really see coming, as I had already worked with him for a year without the attachment. I think the purpose of the attachment is to allow feelings of adequate safety to facilitate working through some of my early experiences and we started that work without explicitly planning to do so, in the last couple of months.
From this work I am realising that some things I thought I was okay with are actually very painful on an unconscious level. The process of bringing that to the surface and trying to reprocess it is delicate and exhausting.
I've also learned that I have no desire at all to have any kind of relationship with T1, and his unsolicited contact has shown me he is knowingly unethical and a bit creepy. That's not something I thought of him before.
All in all I think I have done immense work this past year in therapy and I am very proud of myself and my T for the trusting and highly functional relationship we have developed.