This past year has been one of amazement for me. A year ago, I was very much on the verge of ending things, I knew I was not in a good place and had started researching short duration residential places - I felt like I needed to get away because I was losing grip.

Last Jan I returned to my t (of 2 months) after a 5 wk break with the request to change my entire life and go all in for the long haul.

Now, I have lost a considerable amount of weight leaving me just barely in the obese category. I am significantly physically stronger. I am pursuing ever more changes to my body to address some of my gender dysphoria issues (something I thought would never be possible)...

And even with my slight slips and bad days... I know they are just that, a bad day or a rough week. I feel I can hold on through those days because I have felt the good days, weeks. I have felt the love of others and I have seen glimpses of the love I have for myself.

I have a t that is the bomb ... no she's not perfect and no she doesn't make mistakes... we have our missteps and misqueues... I love her and more importantly, I trust her - I really trust her as scary as that feels at times. I've heard lots of people complain about how bad 2016 has been for them and wishing that it hadn't happened. I'm every so grateful for my 2016 and the rollercoaster it has been. I have a long way still to go - here's to continuing and progressing through 2017!!

I guess I should change my mood to hopeful cuz that is what I am feeling today