Rainbow, DO you realize some people are more private and don't like to trumpet their secrets for the world to hear? That there are things you don't even tell friends?

It's not about YOU, it's about how others share. Maybe your T values her relationshiop and does not want to "curse" it by sharing it with all her clients. SHe is not shutting you out... this is not about you knowing every teeniest detail of your T's life... she is there to help you live your own life. You already wasted year obsesing about this T and previous Ts and... to be honest by your posts it does not seem to be getting any better. Are you all of sudden going to solve your childhood needs... or maybe is it matter just to accept and move on and learn to enjoy your own life.... You don't want to regret all the things you didn't do, do you?