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Old Nov 11, 2007, 05:55 PM
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Thanks, all of you, dear friends.
You really ARE like family here!
What September said, " I told myself it must be what a nurse does in order to care for her patients. Only difference was, I had unresolved issues with my mom that I didn't even know about."...really rings true for me as well.
My mom was quite physically and emotionally abusive to me all the time I was in the home growing up, and even after I had left for college, when I came home, I was still getting physically hit and emotionally berated by her.
As she has grown older, and more fragile, she has wanted a close relationship with me, but I have maintained my distance most of the time, making excuses for not visiting.
I do have compassion and love for her now as she goes thru this, and I'm kind of proud of myself for being strong enough to do all of this for her. I really couldn't bear to put her in a nursing home, and even hiring caregivers seems out of the question, knowing how private she is. It's really up to me now, and I am managing. I think/hope I will come out of this stronger and I will be glad I was able to do it.
Love
Patty