We have a very small family and I will not see or be able to spend time with any of them during the holidays. I use to love the holidays when the kids were around. It was always a frantic time with so much going on but enjoyable all the same.

Now my family is scattered to the four corners of the US. son and his family in DC, aunt in PA, parents in AZ, Sister plus other son and new wife in WA. In fact this will be the first time in 15 years my sister has been able to have Thanksgiving dinner with family.

While I still find some pleasure in the spirit of the season it just feels very empty these days.