I feel all over the place. When will this end? I think I'm rapidly cycling, maybe in a little bit of a mixed episode. I randomly joined a dating site, and I'm already making a lot of screwed up moves. I'm extremely impulsive and give into temptation....but that's only the tip of the iceberg.

What goes way beyond that though is that for the past few weeks, I've been completely unstable. I don't think I'm getting any better.

I'm crying as I write this, but switch up easily. My thoughts are all over the place. I'm impulsive and racy/anxious. .....If I get any worse, I'm afraid of meeting criteria for IP. These meds are barely helping....maybe that extra dose of Klonopin, but it just masks things. I know there's no magical pill, but I don't feel right at all, and I keep waiting for that day where I'll feel different.

I guess I just feel in major need of some help and support. Can't stop crying. Nothing is alleviating the pain anymore. Thanks for letting me vent and ramble. Any advice is welcome.