Today I did nothing for the most part. I played few I pad games saw some posts ate lunch and contemplated life. I got momentum and made a choice to go to the gym. I worked hard for almost two hours and was feeling good. Then I left and what is becoming ritual I sat in he parking lot in my car feeling sad processing why no one wants to hang out with me and why I'm in this situation. I then decided to get some stuff at the supermarket and bout myself a slice of cake. It's been years since I had cake for my birthday. Now I'm contemplating going to see Star Wars but again I'd be alone.