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Originally Posted by Shazerac
I think the best chance of meeting a partner for the long haul is going to be someone you meet when you are stable. Right now you are saying you are not and have suddenly switched from being depressed to wanting to meet people. The "suddenly" part is concerning. I hope you are not switching to a manic phase and will rush into sexual situations that may be damaging to your mental health and self esteem.  |
Thank you. I'm glad you pointed out to me the "Suddenly" part. When I write, I sometimes lose my sense of awareness since in one mood, I am completely different. I'm trying to think of what might have triggered the mania.....I'm not sure what it is, but maybe meds aren't helping enough, since it's been awhile since I've felt healthy. When I enter mania, it's so hard to control myself. That's exactly my pattern where things damage my self-esteem later on.
Although it sounds like I have a level of awareness now, that seems to go out the window when mania takes over. It's like being on a crazy train where I have no control...or so it seems. I'm glad I have therapy tomorrow, but sometimes my therapist doesn't seem to fully understand BP to the degree I wish she did.