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Originally Posted by Sad Mermaid
I had a manic episode recently, with a short hospitalization, and during the escalation period and before I realized what was going on, I got myself into a sexual situation with a guy on a second date, off a dating site. I cancelled the relationship later, because I realized that I would be bored with him, and it was crystal clear that I would so I should not have gotten myself into a sexual situation, and advise you to be very cautious at this stage. I am fine, but waiting for the results of the STI tests was nerve-wrecking. I recommend that you journal the moods now and try to reach a stable point, but until then, avoid dating.
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I've been there before and relate entirely. I want to avoid going back to that. It's difficult and hard for me to understand why I'm driven to do destructive things, knowing that it's not good for me. When I hit a certain point in mania, I don't even have any more insight or care what's good for me anymore though...so I guess at least it's not at that point, but I am definitely not stable. I've also been there waiting around for results of STIs. I know it's misleading to take those tests online to determine severity of mania or depression, but lately it shows up as "very severe" so that must mean something.
Thanks for reminding me to journal. I use moodtracker, but when I get severely depressed or manic, I stop using it due to lack of motivation or concentration. Perhaps it might help if I go back to it. Maybe my psychiatrist wil have more to go by too if I show it to her.