I always liked the Smothers Brothers and remember that line! You're right. Maybe I didn't understand about not being born if I was 4 or even 5. I never thought of it that way. And maybe I did think they cared more about him at the time!

I know it doesn't seem to you that anything got better, but it did. My T agrees. I am accepting my life and being as happy as I can, and growing as a person.

If obsessing about my Ts is still my problem, then something is wrong. I agree. I wish I had the answer. Life just keeps getting more and more difficult for me. Im alone. I have new medical challenges. My life doesn't revolve around my Ts like it used to. You can disagree. It's your right. Yes, I know my T doesn't have to tell me. She and I are curious about my strong reactions. At the same time, in the real world I have art, music, friends and family. Maybe antidepressants would have helped but I couldn't tolerate the side effects. Thanks for your reply.