I forgot to add that I'm always either biting my hands or pushing something because I'm incredibly anxious.

And I have a huge problem sleeping. I stay awake all night.
Last night for example I spent the whole night thinking about the videos I watched which were against transgender people and was wondering and being anxious about this. whether I'm making the right decision coming out to my therapist in 3-2 weeks. or if I'm delusional or crazy. I think I feel asleep at 5am. I usually get really frustrated and for some reason I drink coffee when I get frustrated. but after stomach issues and my father fighting me for drinking a lot of coffee I stopped.