I am a 32 y.o woman. I live with my mom n bro (normal in my culture). I love my family, but off late, I can't stand to live with my family. Both my mom and bro are very strong personalities and I end up doing what they want, even if I really, really, really don't want to. I have also become very slothy and dependent. I feel like I need my family's approval for the tiniest things (esp my bro, who is VERY opinionated).

Over time, a part of me has started loving the idea of living alone - for the peace & solitude, for having 100% control over my day, space, things I eat and my to-do list.

But another part of me feels like I am running away from my family. My mother had it tough growing up and did back-breaking amount of work for her family....and raising us. I'm pretty sure even my mother would have got fed up of it all and wanted to leave everything....but she stuck for us.

Things with my family is extremely dysfunctional. I want to improve things and relationship with my family. When I try to work things with my brother, it turns into screaming matches and I ALWAYS give in because I can't stand things being rough for long. When I try to work things with my mother, it works for 2 days then falls back to the comfortable but dysfunctional level. Also, I've lived in the same place for the last 20 years....SAME PLACE with bad memories.

Do you think living alone for a while might make things better with my family? Am I being selfish in wanting to move out (atleast for a while)? Am I running away from my family or am I finally taking control of things?

Thank you for reading. Double thanks for answering! Please be gentle...emotionally, I am not ready for harsh words that I have not already heard from my family or super-hyper self-critical me.