The problem is I just can't get myself to go out and do stuff on my own or with others because I'm constantly on edge about him being smarmy about me going out and if he is that way with me, i can't enjoy being out and am solely thinking about how smarmy he's going to be to me when I return. Or if he seems ok with me going out, I'll go out but will constantly be thinking about how he will most likely be all huffy with me when I return. My coworker asked me if I wanted to go out with her after work this week and I immediately don't think "that would be fun" but instead only think about how H will probably be upset and telling him about it stresses me out and I immediately come up with a reason why I can't. Even though he knows how bored I am at home.