Greetings,
I posted an introduction in the main intro section. There's a trigger alert on my post there.

I am here to give and receive support and hopefully learn to how deal with this new "monster" (PTSD) in my life. It's a challenge as my two main triggers are caused by my husband. .

Although I realize (rationally) that I am physically safe, I don't "feel safe". My guts are in knots. The holidays were really rough. I'm approaching the 1-year anniversary of his disclosure and his near-fatal attempt (which I was able to stop).

I worry about him, b/c he seems so different intellectually. He is an MD (not currently practicing b/c of his issue - major depression). Previously he was always so stable, smart, and respectable (I thought). This feels like whiplash. (Who was I married to for 23 years?) I worry about him, too, b/c he had very prolonged exposure to carbon monoxide and I've read some research that it can affect the brain long-term.

Of course I need to put energy into myself and my healing. I am going to try to get motivated to get into a yoga class. I stopped practicing yoga due to some lumbar spine issues and I am a bit better and want to start again. I have had GAD for a long time, so this complicates things (along with perimenopause - OY VEY!)

I just wanted to pop in here and introduce myself to others who "get" PTSD.