I can't really just chill and be my non motivated self.
The guilt is worse than pretending I'm not depressed.
So I'm working on leaving my room more.
We're up at the new house tonight. He makes it easy for me. Brings up stuff I want.
The one reason I don't come up here is I hate to be reminded I had a bad episode before construction was finished. Now I'm faced with all the designs for completion.
It makes me feel worthless and sad and pressured to work.
Oh well. I'm trying.
Do you get this way sometimes?