Hello. I've never admitted to a certain behavior that I have, but I'm not sure why I've kept it a secret. (I've admitted pretty much everything else.) I even know why I do it, the specific origin from when I was abused. Part of my abuse included my head being grabbed from behind, and pulled forward. To this day, I cannot stand to have anyone touch the top of my head. My reaction is extreme, to say the least, when someone does it. I simply explode inside with fear and pull away, virtually screaming. I cannot hide my emotions when it happens.

And here is what I do with it, every day -- I dig into my scalp with my fingernails. I peel off chunks of skin until I bleed, and then I peel off the scabs. I do this throughout the day. Every day. I want to stop, but I can't seem to.

Anyone else do something like this to themselves?

mtd