I'm sorry you are feeling down, ECHOES. ((((hugs))))

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I refuse to "get it". Why?!!?!

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">You are stuck in the trauma of that pain.

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Rescue then..Why couldn't they see my pain and rescue me?

Rescue now...Why can't T see my pain and rescue me?

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ECHOES, I can feel your pain. Do you have a strategy in therapy for working on this issue? What does your T suggest?

Early in my therapy, we worked with a little girl ego state of mine and I (the grown-up ego state sunny) learned to "rescue" her. I found this very healing to know I could do this. And very empowering. I don't know if something similar would help you or is part of your T's repertoire.

(((((((hugs)))))))