I know, you are right and I DID know that it wasn't really a relationship...I never really knew what to call it exactly, it wasn't just hook ups because there was a little more (I've had hook ups and they were pretty much hop on hop off leave)...my little brain wanted more and imagined there was more. It was never anything real. I believe that is what hurts the worst is the disillusionment...my bubble has been burst. I was so far out in unreality and had nothing better to do all the time than use my imagination.
sick sick

to be honest, based on a lot of our interactions, I believe he is probably a sex addict...and I've come to wonder if I might be a love addict (just a variation of a theme) and those seem to go together a lot of times according to articles I've read