I feel that there is no reason to live. i have always felt this way. There is 10x more evil than there is good in this world. even my memories are fading. i cant remember significant events of my life, even as little back as 2 years. i dont remember most of my childhood and teen years. I am only 20 years old. im already bald, and the 2 primary emotions i feel are suicidally depressed, and absolute hatred. Im on effexor and it is not helping me, i feel like its making me worse. I just want to kill myself. its 90% of every thought in my head. im just so tired of it all, i cant even keep myself interested enough to finish this post.