i have been so down sense my last therapy session . i have been trying so hard to stay busy and not obsess about things .i have gone out and got together with friends .it is a distraction but then the blues come back .my last session was so rough . i feel like crap after it . i dont know if it was from talking some about my brother and the mother . or if it was how aggressive my T was about me talking about it . things that she said .i was crying and she asked me to get a tissue .i shook my head no .she then seemed to get frustrated and raised her voice saying "see you would rather stay miserable then to just grab a tissue ,they are right next to you now get one " i was scared not to . she insisted i tell her about some humiliating things about my brother taking care of me . im scared of what she thinks of me . then i asked her if it was ok for me to sometime tell her how things felt when this was going on . she seemed to get frustrated again and said if you feel it will help you ,you know you can talk to me about anything . but she earlier,when she was pushing me to talk about my brother,she said i can choose to sit there and talk about my health or my son and his dog but this is what i need to be talking about . it made me think she doesnt want me to talk about it any more after i just told her a little about it . i dont want to make her sound like she is horrible or unsympathetic. she also said thinks like wants me to see how horrible this story was and she is sorry .she also told me to call her if i need to because she knows it was a hard session . i dont think i would call her at this point even if i could but she only is in her office 2 days a week so i wouldnt reall be able to . anyway just wanted to vent a little. i feel im doing what i can like getting together with friends and stuff and i still end up feeling miserable