((((((((((irishj)))))))))
I hear you on the no smoking thing ... thats one of the things that lead me into a deeper hole with my SI.
Try not to focus on all of the stressors at once ... take things one step at a time, and focus on your breathing. My T use to always say "how you breathe is how you live." I always try and keep that in mind when things are going especially rough.
Try and stay safe, and know you have us here supporting you.
Jacq