I'm always struggling with this. For me it comes down to.. Does my behavior lead to problems in my life? My 'manic' behavior leads to problems with my business because of all of my tangent projects that never get finished and seeking distractions down rabbit holes because I feel like they are connected to what I really do. So... I have financial problems. When I'm depressed and do nothing... I have financial problems. Financial problems lead to relationship problems. I feel like these things need to be fixed. During my hospitalization they kept telling me not to focus on the label.... more on the symptoms/problems. Accept treatment that deals with those. Not on the 'diagnosis'. Still.. I can't help but be obsessed with the diagnosis. I like having a label for the wreck I've caused in my life.

I'm also in the wrong field in many ways. Not so much the creative aspect (I'm a work-at-home craftsman/bladesmith) .. but the output. I need somebody to keep an eye on me. I'm the last person who should be working for themselves.