Thank you so much for sharing your story. From what I've heard (many times over the years) these type of horrific things go on very often.

I'm so sorry you had to experience all these injustices.

But what options do we have, when there's nobody that will appropriately advocate for us, and treatments/medicines often, do more harm than good?

I really need to know, because my symptoms have worsened to the point that I'm barely functioning at all...(No delusions but severe depression and panic/anxiety)--
Thought I could pull myself out of this - but know now I likely can't...
I don't have access to drugs (legal or illegal) and can't tolerate liquor (which I've tried several times to both calm down, stop shaking and numb my brain from obsessing about wanting to be dead) -

No insurance so ER only option,
but my fears are exactly what you described.
So I stay stuck in this condition that's now interfering with almost everything...
How can this happen, that so often the treatment and medicines cause more harm than good???
I hear and read these type of stories constantly. U surely r not alone.
It's so sad.
I don't get it And it makes me so mad! That people who really need help, are hurt instead.
I hope somehow you'll keep trying to get what you need, (competent + caring professionals in a supportive environment)
to be able to heal and live a peaceful, positive, productive life again.