I was dxed with BPD years ago but did not pay much attention to it. After looking into it it's scary how much I 'have' it. I seem much more BPD than Bipolar and far more ashamed to even admit to it. I don't know why. I've never even told my parents or children. My boyfriend knows but he has it too. I'm always the 'leaver' in relationships. I can turn on a dime. It is as if the feelings are there one day and gone the next. Feelings are overwhelming, very intense, hence my love for the velvet pool of alcohol.