I read your post and I really feel bad that your are going through all of this. I think you are a very strong. Believe me, anyone who goes through all this pain and still keeps up with all the day to day activities is like a miracle. You also express yourself very well.

I know that my story does not compare to yours, because
I have no children. But my ex left when he beat the crap out of me. At that time, I felt that any relationship was better than
being alone. Thank God, I did survive. I am no longer co-dependent. I have depression which I can't seem to get rid of. As if, it were SO EASY..
I also have a lot of faith in God & very thankful for all the blessings I have .Sorry to ramble about my life. Whenever, you need to vent, I am here.

I will keep you in my prayers.