To endure this pain from day to day
shows a weak person in every way
cant help myself, too weary yet
The words of support I wont forget
A light from within, is what I need
need to find the switch, plant a seed.
I envy those of faith some days
If only like you I had religious ways.
Someone to comfort me through these times
Somewhere to go when the church bells chime....
Was never raised that way you see
In my house God wasn't to be....
Here is the soul of mental corruption
pressing the buttons to self destruction.
Tears wont fall, I'm running on empty
numbness, well, of that there's plenty.
maybe I am just a lost cause
soon to be taken by satans claws.....
Time to live, time to die
so often now I wonder why....
I'm still here causing so much trouble
My family need more than this pile of rubble.

totally and utterly hopeless, worthless, useless, selfish, weak,
waste of space........