Continued...
U said, "...When telling yourself to keep going isnt working anymore?
When you are tired of living for others but you can't live for yourself?
What do you do when the people who understand are all gone, they left or were forced out of your life?..."
See my last response, YOU MUST TAKE A BREAK, for as long as it takes to have the strength to deal with all these other important questions...
YOU must take care of yourself, or you'll have nothing to give to others -
We can't depend on anyone, when feeling this bad, only you have the power to keep YOURSELF going, it's up to you, to be nice to yourself, to survive - When you feel stronger, and recoup some of those couping skills, you can then work on fixing the problems, like getting back those things you lost (e.g. people forced out of your life)
Still here?