We can't end the pain (that's why being dead is so desirable to me, the pain has gone on for too long) -
But when we "take a break" and distract our minds from those painful things and traumatic losses, our coping skills start coming back a little, and then we can tackle all the rest -
U sound too much like me, which is why I know you must take a break, and take care of yourself- I wouldn't be here anymore, if I hadn't done that the many times, when I felt I could no longer handle the pain, and my coping skills were depleted...
There's just so much pain any mind or body can withstand...
And when you've reached the breaking point, there's no other choice than to step back, and take care of yourself for a little while -

The problems and people can wait, until you're stronger and you have the strength to keep battling (life/problems)...